Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Prepare for a nostalgic post. A conversation between pam and I. It got me crying, slightly...if there was no one at home I would probably end up keening(remember this word? i think it's spelt like that.) haha. Just wanna let you guys know how we feel.
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pam says:
i miss all your teasing now that i dont hear it everyday
celine- don't you dare. says:

celine- don't you dare. says:
i miss your stupidity too
celine- don't you dare. says:
aye this sucks la
pam says:
huh?
pam says:
what sucks?
celine- don't you dare. says:
i dunno
celine- don't you dare. says:
it's kinda differrent
celine- don't you dare. says:
yet not so different
celine- don't you dare. says:
life,
pam says:
i know
pam says:
its like you still know your friends but you dont see them everyday anymore
pam says:
like last time
pam says:
yet it feels like you see them alot when you actually see them only very little?
pam says:
i dont knowleh
celine- don't you dare. says:
yah
celine- don't you dare. says:
i dunno
celine- don't you dare. says:
stop it
celine- don't you dare. says:
i hate this topic
pam says:
me too
celine- don't you dare. says:
but it's wad i think abt almost everyday
pam says:
really?
pam says:
i dunno but sometimes i think i'm emotionally detatched
pam says:
alot of things im suppose dto feel sad about i just feel so extremely numb.
celine- don't you dare. says:
me too
celine- don't you dare. says:
i dunno why
celine- don't you dare. says:
i'm beginning to think of things i shudn't think of
pam says:
i go on with my life like nth is happening when i know that it isnt what i aways wanted it to be
pam says:
like what things?
celine- don't you dare. says:
like...oh no here we go again
celine- don't you dare. says:
how life will be in 3 years times
celine- don't you dare. says:
whether i'm gonna die tmr or not
pam says:
sigh..i know!!
celine- don't you dare. says:
what will happen when someone dies in my family
pam says:
omg that is so true
celine- don't you dare. says:
like how different it's gonna be
pam says:
okay stop stop stopsopt
celine- don't you dare. says:
oh shit
pam says:
please
pam says:
i dont wanna hear anymore
pam says:
its one think when i think about it but when you say it out its just you know..
celine- don't you dare. says:
i know
celine- don't you dare. says:
aiyah
celine- don't you dare. says:
i hate this la
celine- don't you dare. says:
if only we were back in ij
celine- don't you dare. says:
things would still have seem the same
celine- don't you dare. says:
at least i feel good there
celine- don't you dare. says:
life i've been there my whole life
pam says:
i feel more secure there
celine- don't you dare. says:
yah
pam says:
it feel sso awfully familiar
pam says:
like home!
pam says:
oh stop
pam says:
i feel like ing
celine- don't you dare. says:
there it seems like nothing will change
celine- don't you dare. says:
shit i wanna cry
celine- don't you dare. says:
yah
pam says:
yeah like i will have all my friends for life
celine- don't you dare. says:
yah
pam says:
now im scared everyone will forget everyone cos we are all too caught up with all the insignificant things
celine- don't you dare. says:
like i see the faces i see everyday
celine- don't you dare. says:
shit
celine- don't you dare. says:
don't
celine- don't you dare. says:
i'm really gonna cry
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I can't imagine how it's gonna be like years from now. It seems that the years in IJ would be the most wonderful years in my life. The upcoming results would not only mean that we'll probably be moving on to our new JC/Poly/Australia lives, it also means breaking away from IJ.

We will no longer be wearing the IJ uniform. A uniform I've come to be so familiar with. A uniform which I've spent 10 years of my life in. I'll be reminded when I see my sisters in their uniforms, and the school opposite my house, and the no-longer-in-use IJ uniform hanging in the cupboard, of the wonderful memories there- from primary school all the way to secondary school. The things I've learnt, the teachers I had. It's hard to break away from this sense of security, this second home I had since i was was 6. This would probably be the best part of my life. The most unforgetable. The most memorable.

I'm missing IJ loads and you guys too.

I can't continue this post.

I can't stop my tears from falling.

I can't break away.

-a very sentimental celine-