Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Happy Valentines’ day peeps!!

Sa, you have a web cam and a microphone right? Can we settle a date and time then I can go online to talk to you please… haven’t seen you in ages. Hope you like everything there and are getting used to it! We miss u loads.

Kel! Good to hear that your sis’s sedding went well! Remember to bring the disc of photos for me ya? And u moron! Never go out with us on the day results were released. Pangseh-er! You better come on Friday! Or else…

Anyway Pam and I cannot make up our minds on which jc to go… I think after entering sajc for 1st three months, I somehow or another have a lot of insecurities for the next 2 years. Give me another 2 years in a similar environment and I think I’ll seriously go nuts. And there’s the route to poly (which aly strongly objects) to take nursing. if i can get the scholarship, I seriously do not mind taking nursing… what I’m afraid of is once I enter the course, then I’ll realize that maybe nursing is not for me, by then it would be too bloody late already. But I’m sick of studying, doing all those subjects which are mostly irrelevant to nursing in future. It would be nice for the govt to pay me to study right?

I’ve not even got the scholarship yet… so maybe all that I’ve been rambling about makes no sense. But if I get it, it would mean 900 a month… then I can go buy clothes, get new wheels for my blades, perhaps change my ic and put my baptism name it, dont need to study my ass off too… but if I don’t go jc, I’ll be missing out quite a lot. They don’t have grad night in poly right? Or nafa tests? And maybe the boys there would be so ‘beng-ish’, I will never get to see the cute, dark and muscular j2 canoeists anymore. what's more, i would be totally clueless when you nj and cj people talk about the jc cirriculum. then it won't be the same anymore... :(

And I don’t know what He has in plan for me. I’ve been praying about it and I cant seem to hear the Lord. Sorry peeps, but please say a prayer for us ya? Thanks.

Have fun at your respective jcs/ poly/ high school/ whatever. Take care and keep the friendship going ya?

-mx e indecisive